For the first time in awhile, I”m actually feeling *good*. Can you believe it? I’m not dwelling, I’m not feeling sorry for myself, I’m not moping about sitting this cycle out. I’m — dare I say it — edging closer to *happy* than I have been in awhile.
Maybe I feel like things are looking up. Maybe I think this is the year, this next cycle will be THE cycle. Tim got a job that sounds like it’s going to be steady, no lay-off in sight. He’s working overnights and therefore making DOUBLE his hourly apprentice wage, which is huge for us. We’ll be able to get caught up on everything we fell behind on while he’s been laid off, and we’ll be able to save some money too. Maddie will be three in May, and every day she does something that just makes my heart burst with pride. She truly is the light of my life.
And guess what? My cousin is having her baby soon! She’s due in a little less than three weeks, but really, it could be any day now. And I’m EXCITED. I cannot wait to hold beautiful little Olivia and spoil her rotten. Two months ago, I was bawling at the baby shower. Today, I’m counting down the minutes until she enters the world.
I’m not sure what will happen next cycle. Will it work? Will I even get pregnant, and if I do, will I stay that way? I don’t know.
But for now, I’m going to hang on to my little bit of happy and hope it grows. Positive attitude.