It’s been approximately 276 days since I took my last birth control pill.
When we decided to start trying for a baby the first time, things were easy. I stopped taking the pill, and three weeks later, I was pregnant. This time around, things haven’t been so simple.
I guess I shouldn’t say that. Getting pregnant hasn’t been a problem. I got pregnant three weeks after stopping the pill this time, too, and again a month after that. Then a break, then we tried again and got pregnant. Then lost that one too, then another break, then got pregnant right away again. And lost that one too.
I just can’t believe it’s been 276 and I’m still not carrying a viable pregnancy. My cousin is due in 6 days with her first, and if I’d stayed pregnant the first time, I’d be due in about five weeks. I can’t believe it’s been that long and I’m still not carrying another baby.
Four due dates will come and go. March, April, July, and September. Will I be pregnant again before I hit any of those dates? Will I have suffered any more losses? So many questions, and no one can give me a firm answer.
276 days and counting.