Since we started trying to get pregnant almost a year ago (wow. Really? Wow), we have officially “tried” four times. The first month after going off the pill (ended in a loss) , again the second month after the pill (ended in a loss), in October (ended in a loss), and in January (ended in a loss).
Do you see that? We have tried to get pregnant four times. We got pregnant four times. And yet, I’m not pregnant. How sad is that?
I know I’m lucky, in that for many women, GETTING pregnant is the big battle. My battle is staying pregnant. I don’t know which is worse/harder to deal with, but I can honestly say that I think I’d rather not be able to get pregnant at all than to have had to deal with these four losses. Or maybe not. Maybe I can’t really say for sure, since getting that positive test has never been my problem.
Can I get lucky enough to have the “getting pregnant every try” trend continue this cycle? Or have I run out of free passes? Is it too late?
Here comes another battle. Uphill both ways.