Confession: I feel completely detached from this whole pregnancy experience.
I know, that sounds so completely awful, especially because I wanted this SO badly (and I still do, don’t get me wrong!) Some days, I wake up and don’t even really remember that I’m pregnant. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve gone to put on a pair of pre-preggo pants and said, “Oh. Wait, I’m pregnant.”
Yesterday, at the ultrasound, I felt like it wasn’t even me lying at that table. I felt like I was floating above myself, watching someone else have an ultrasound, watching someone else’s baby kick and squirm on the screen.
What is wrong with me?