I can’t remember if I’ve posted on the blog about my boss or not. To put it simply, she’s crazy. I spend most of my days stressing about whether or not she’s mad at me for something (and that something is usually really NOTHING, she’s just crazy.) I had my review several months back, and it was GLOWING. I’ve never gotten such a great review. A week later, I had to call out for the day because Maddie’s daycare provider was sick. She was perfectly nice about it on the phone, told me not to worry about it and she’d see me the next day. Well, the next day came, and she pulled me into her office and ripped me a new one. Told me that no one in the department could could on me for anything, that I didn’t take my job seriously, that I was worthless as an employee. She went on to tell me I was no longer allowed to take any days off, to go to any doctors appointments, etc. I was SO pissed, so LIVID, that I literally almost quit then and there.
This week, I was browsing the open positions on our company’s website. I came across one that interested me, and after much internal debate, I decided to apply for it. The next day, I got a call from the HR manager wanting to set up an interview. YES!!! After some more internal debate and a conversation with my cousin, who is a big-wig HR exec for Target, I decided I needed to tell my boss about the interview, just to be up front and honest with her (the company encouarages this as well).
So, this morning, after psyching myself up, I went in to her and told her the news. Before I could even continue, she said to me, “Well, I’m glad, because this really isn’t working out anymore anyway.”
Um…WHAT? Are you fucking KIDDING ME!? I cannot. believe. she. said. that. How inappropriate! How unprofessional! I was appalled. First of all, I come to work EVERY DAY. I do my job and then some (not that there’s much to it). I make any appointment my have for over my lunch hour so I don’t have to miss any work. SHE IS CRAZY!
So now, I”m stressed. If I don’t get this job, she is going to make my life a living hell. I would not put it past her to find any reason she can to fire me. I am terrified of that happening.
On top of that, I can’t decide if I should tell my could-be-manager, the one I’m interviewing with, that I’m pregnant. On the one hand, I know that no matter how much they say they won’t discrimnate because I’m pregnant, nine times out of ten they will choose the non-pregnant candidate instead. On the other, I don’t want them to feel like I was dishonest or sneaky in not telling them. HR cousin says don’t tell, but I’m not so sure. I think that if I was interview for a different company altogether, I would keep it quiet. But because this is an internal position, and because so many people at work already know, I feel like keeping it a secret will appear dishonest.
UGH. I am so stressed.